When I first got hooked on watching pornography and masturbation is also a coincidence, the first time I watched pornography fifth grade, was brought to the house by playmates, they turned on the computer to play the yellow content, I was too young and did not know what I was doing, just feel very disgusting, and did not get addicted to it.

Just one of the little friends, he was affected by the yellow/color content, addicted, but at that time the site is not popular, so he collected all kinds of erasure movie, take me with me to watch, I only a little addicted, but not too serious .

Bringing me I followed along and watched, not bringing me I didn't take the initiative to watch. After going to junior high school, I have a table like to say yellow/color content, such as jokes and so on, now I think of it think that saying those words is very immodest, but at that time I was still small, surprisingly, I think that saying those words is very trendy.

In fact, I grew up in a rather chaotic environment, and did not receive much traditional cultural education, nor did I know what was good and what was evil, right and wrong were upside down.

I was influenced by my classmates and started to tell yellow/color jokes as well. After that, one of my classmates gave me a yellow/color website, and from then on, I started to fall deeper into it, and caught the habit of looking at pornography, and later on, masturbation as well.

Symptoms

As I broke the precepts again and again, I began to have symptoms, first of all, my body was weak, I was out of breath after running a few laps, my rhinitis worsened, my nose was out of breath, and I had problems with my psychology, I could hardly speak when I met people, I often kept my head down, I had fear inside me, and my mind was still in a state of confusion.

This is only the beginning of the symptoms, and I didn't know at the time that it was caused by watching pornography and masturbating, and that this kind of behavior is highly addictive, only more, not the most.

I have been evil for a few years now, my body as well as my mind can be said to be in total collapse, my body is weak and weak, I am seriously afraid of the cold, I have no vitality, my heart is anxious, depressed, and I have serious social fears, when others look at me.

I feel like I am being targeted, and I am scared to death. My memory is severely impaired, and I can't memorize a piece of ancient poetry for an hour, and I forget every word I remember.

Before I got addicted to it, I could memorize a poem with the same number of words in about ten minutes.

My comprehension dropped drastically. When I was studying physics in high school, I was able to learn the exact same problem before, and then I reviewed it from scratch in my second year of high school, but I had been addicted to the evil for a long time, and my comprehension dropped, so I couldn't even learn it, and at that time, I was especially surprised.

Why I could learn at that time, now exactly the same questions, I can not learn, and then study the article of abstinence from sex I understand that the kidney on the brain, kidney essence is insufficient to lead to a decline in brain power.

I was feeling like an idiot, every day muddled, like living in a dream, and neurasthenia, insomnia at night, get up in the morning and did not wake up like sleep, lying on the table every day, always feel sleepy, stomach and intestines are not good, can not eat the meal, the midday meal also have no appetite to eat, lying on the table, often do so, there are times when the stomach and intestines are still hurt badly.

Some friends say that the stomach and intestines with the evil, in fact, according to the theory of traditional Chinese medicine, fire begets earth, the lack of kidney yang affects the spleen yang, spleen and kidney yang deficiency leads to a lot of symptoms in the stomach and intestines.

Later on, there was also the problem of hunchback, neck stiffness, I live every day in a variety of symptoms of torture, and then took a break from school, and finally took a single examination, only to go to the specialty. This is not the most terrible thing, the most terrible thing is that I still don't know that this is caused by evil!

Quit experience: seniors quit experience summed up very comprehensive, do can certainly quit, including I mentioned before to do good, can be found in the ten rules of quitting. The following share some of my personal experience of practicing the experience of predecessors.

1. Stay away from yellow sources

Regardless of how to quit, the first step is certainly to stay away from the yellow source, look at the yellow will be broken, do not look at the yellow is to quit evil, no matter how many days to quit, or quit a few years, once look at the yellow, quitting the mansion will be collapsed.

Please think about it, every time you break your own quit, is it the first time you want to look at the yellow, look at the yellow after the desire to stimulate, and finally began to masturbate, a masturbation even several times, do not empty themselves do not stop, like squeezing toothpaste, squeeze out their kidney essence.

I once saw a message from a fellow ex-abstainer who said that he didn't want to masturbate at the beginning of his breakthrough, but wanted to look at pornography, and after looking at pornography, he stimulated his desire, which led to masturbation, and I believe that most of the ex-abstainers have experienced this. But how to control not looking at pornography is to emphasize the actual battle.

2. Emphasize the actual battle

The actual battle is to break the intention to go away and keep away from the content of the rubbing, first of all, most of the broken ring is the brain jumped out of the intention to go away, the evil, the image of the memory, or encouragement of the class of ideas.

Jumping out of a thought did not recognize the break in time, followed by a thought followed by another thought, the urge to desire is getting stronger and stronger, can not control themselves to see the yellow broken, rubbing the picture is also.

Seeing the rubbing of the picture and text, staring at, stimulate the desire, followed by a crazy search for rubbing of the picture and text, crazy look, can not satisfy the desire to look at the yellow, and finally lead to break the precepts, how to cope with it?

It is to learn to break the intention to go on and not to look at the content of the rubbing.

First of all, to break the intention, how to break it? My understanding of the word “break” is to realize and transform, realize is to find the idea, such as image recall, intention to go on, encouragement. Transformation is the transformation, such as the use of mantra, name, thinking about the cure, etc., must be found in a timely manner, if you follow the evil thoughts run for a long time, found that the desire has risen, then the break will have a greater difficulty.

There is more content on the Internet, so if you accidentally see it, you must cross it out immediately and never stare at it.

Control the use of the network, nothing not online, this is also a good way to stay away from the rubric, online rubric content is too much, some platforms specifically to rubric to attract traffic, addicted to the network at the same time is also easy to sedentary vision, the body is not conducive to recovery.

3. Doing good deeds and benefiting others, often doing good deeds

In terms of quitting, we can publicize quitting, forwarding articles on quitting, removing advertisements, helping new quitters get on the right track, and also releasing animals and so on. Doing good deeds is not only beneficial to others but also to oneself.