I was a good student in the eyes of my parents and relatives. Since I was in junior high school, girls have always liked me. Teachers also praised me for my good looks. At that time, I listened to my parents more and had no evil thoughts. When I reached puberty, when I was in the first year of high school, I accidentally came into contact with evil. From then on, I couldn't stop. I downloaded pornographic novels and sex videos​ from the Internet. On average, I did it once a day. After masturbation, I couldn't concentrate and was very forgetful. I always wanted to sleep and didn't want to talk to anyone. Within a year, retribution came. Occasionally, when I urinated, I found that my urine was forked. I felt the seriousness of the situation, so I checked the Internet. At that time, there were a lot of articles on the Internet that promoted the theory that masturbation is harmless and masturbation relieves prostate pressure and promotes prostate recovery, which made me continue to masturbate. This gave me a reason to masturbate, and then I became even worse. My academic performance plummeted, and I went from a seedling in a key university to a junior college (this is my eternal pain). When I graduated from high school, I got prostatitis. The symptoms included bifurcated urine, dripping urine, white urine, premature ejaculation, low erection hardness, back pain, no pleasure after ejaculation, forgetfulness, lack of energy, and I looked like a dead body without any life. At that time, I checked the Internet again, and it was still harmless, or said that masturbating once or twice a week would help recovery. I was defeated by the words of the experts again. After the summer vacation, I went to college. At school, I vowed to quit masturbation. Within two weeks of quitting, I had three nocturnal emissions, which hit my self-confidence. In addition, college was too free, and it was easy to get in touch with pornographic sources. The notebooks of my classmates in the dormitory basically had pornographic films. I fell again. In college, my luck was very bad. I failed the exams, and I was either expelled from part-time jobs or I didn’t like to communicate with people. I was not familiar with my classmates and didn’t dare to talk to female classmates, but I raped her countless times in my mind. I looked like a skeleton, very wretched. I was just wrapped in layers. I was 177 cm tall and weighed less than 60KG. When I went home during the winter and summer vacations, my neighbors and relatives didn't want to see me.

Once by chance, I was on the way back from the train, and a person sitting next to me said to me, and the first sentence scared me. He said, young man, you are a short-lived person. I was very angry at the time and wanted to scold him, but I still held back. I asked him why he said that, and his words woke me up. He said that I had a very heavy coldness in my body (dull eyes, dark circles and bags under the eyes, and yellow ears without vitality). The reason was that you indulged in excessive sexual activities, which led to a serious loss of your kidney essence. Once the kidney essence is insufficient, the five internal organs will not work. Your spleen and stomach must be weak. You have dry heaves in the morning, easy diarrhea, always feel a dull pain in the liver area, and often have pain in the waist. And if you touch your ears, if your ears are very soft, then your life is almost over. If your ears are hard and thick, then your life is particularly hard. After hearing this, I touched my ears, and they were indeed very soft (masturbation patients can touch their ears).

I panicked at that time. No one had ever said that to me. I asked him if he was a doctor, and he said he was. He said that doctors nowadays have no medical ethics and rarely speak openly. They only speak what the patients are willing to accept. He went on to say that if you continue like this, there will be only one result, renal failure followed by uremia, and then either a kidney transplant or waiting to die. The couple sitting opposite us looked at me with strange eyes at that time, and I was about to cry. I asked him if it was too late for me to quit now? He said that you were born with good kidney essence, otherwise you would have turned pale at a young age, and it is not too late to turn back now. (sex videos​) It is up to you to decide whether what I said here is a blessing or a curse. Remember to abstain from sex before marriage and abstinence after marriage. For someone like you who has a serious loss of kidney essence, you should not have masturbation or other indulgences before the age of 28 (I am 22 years old and born in the year of the horse). It is recommended that you eat about 10 grams of black sesame seeds every day, 5 grams a day after a year, and 1-2 grams of black sesame seeds a day after your body recovers. You must insist on eating them, just eat cooked black sesame seeds dry.

I was about to cry at that time and hurriedly got up and left my seat. I hid in another car until I arrived at the station. After returning home, I restrained myself a lot and decided to quit pron and sex videos​.