Two decades of compulsive masturbation and years of transactional sex hollowed out my body and soul, leaving behind a life entangled in suffering. As my fortune dwindled and my conscience faded, I sank into despair—until one awakening moment years ago revealed the truth: those fleeting moments of pleasure had compounded into an abyss of pain.

Six years ago, battered but determined, I crawled out of the self-dug pit. Looking back at those years of self-destruction, regret and remorse still cut deep. How did I persist? Three lifelines saved me: unshakable resolve, relentless discipline, and a radical shift in mindset. The core of this transformation? A fundamental change of heart—replacing vice with virtue.

The Power of Mental Rewiring I began with simple mental exercises. While consuming daily news, I practiced empathy:

When disasters struck, I imagined aiding victims.

Reading of accidents, I grieved for shattered families.

Though seemingly naive, these thought patterns gradually rewired my psyche. My explosive temper softened. Jealousy dissolved. Anxiety loosened its grip. Most remarkably, my cravings for lust faded. Physical healing followed: chronic insomnia and hormonal acne vanished. This revelation spurred action—"letting go to gain" became my mantra.

A Turning Point in Inner Mongolia Years ago, in a shop in Inner Mongolia, I overheard villagers discussing an impending crisis. Deforestation had destabilized the hillside sheltering 30 households. A 20,000-yuan retaining wall could save their homes, but they’d scraped together only half. Moved by their desperation, I anonymously donated the remaining 8,000 yuan. As tears streamed down my face—uncharacteristic for someone hardened by years of vice—I realized: compassion had reawakened my buried conscience.

The wall was built. Later, a newspaper article praised the "love-built barrier," though the donor remained unnamed. That night, I slept peacefully for the first time in decades.

Extending Compassion to All Beings Four years ago, inspired by ancient teachings, I began liberating captive animals—fish, birds, and more. Though mocked as eccentric, I persisted. Every life deserves dignity. Miraculously, my severe health issues—Behçet’s disease (untreatable oral ulcers), chronic allergies, and hearing loss—vanished without medication.

Local fish vendors knew me as the "Mystery Buyer" who paid top prices only to release their catch. Critics called me a "wealthy madman," but the joy of seeing creatures regain freedom outweighed judgment.

The Science of Karma As physics teaches: Every action has an equal reaction. My deeds—good and bad—returned to shape my life. Years of vice drained my vitality, but cultivating virtue replenished it. By nurturing compassion, I built an "inner fortress" against lust. When intrusive thoughts arose, a powerful voice now countered: "Remember your vows. Heaven watches."

Why Abstinence Fails Quitting addiction isn’t just about willpower. Years of self-abuse deplete our moral "reserves"—the vitality and integrity needed to sustain recovery. To succeed, we must:

Replenish inner virtue through acts of kindness.

Design a personalized strategy blending discipline and self-compassion.

Build spiritual resilience to withstand temptation.

A Blueprint for Liberation

Redirect energy: Replace lust with purpose (e.g., volunteering).

Anchor habits: Daily mindfulness practices to maintain clarity.

Embrace community: Connect with others on similar journeys.

My story proves: Healing begins when we stop fighting darkness and start feeding the light within. The cravings that once ruled me now bow to a stronger force—the unshakable peace of a conscience reborn.

To those still struggling: Your greatest weapon isn’t grit alone, but the courage to rebuild your identity. Lust chains because it’s easy. Freedom demands growth—but the life awaiting you isn’t just clean. It’s alive.